tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18583230939220212562024-03-14T00:29:47.861-07:00BABY Kibbles N BitsAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10143327090720477786noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1858323093922021256.post-39319158192858349052018-09-30T22:40:00.000-07:002018-09-30T22:40:43.404-07:00Delivery!<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">It has been nearly 3 months since I had my little man but I have been so busy with him and life I haven't had a chance to sit and write down his birth story! </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I had one other Dr's appt before I had him and it was just like the previous two, no dilation, baby was head down (super low as usual on my bladder!), my vitals were great, NST was great. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">On monday February 11th I had a normal day of cleaning, I decided to wash some bottles and get some more stuff together for the baby. I had contractions all through the day and some lower back pain. None of this was unusual or any worse than normal for me so I went about my day. I made dinner and my husband, my 6 year old and I were sitting at our dinner table. We were talking about when the baby might come and on what day each of us thought he would come when I felt what I thought was my water breaking. It was very light, not like the gush I had with my previous son, but when you have felt it before you remember the feeling. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I'm sure I got an odd look on my face and looked at my husband said calmly "I think my water just broke." "What?" he said, "Are you sure?" I got up from the table took a few steps (out of view of my son) and pulled down my pants to check. "Yup, pretty sure." I said and began to waddle to the bathroom. By the time I got to the toilet I was hollering at him: "Yup, it definitely broke!" All I could think was "Dangit!" Because it was 5 weeks early. I was instantly worried about him not being able to breathe on his own, not being able to take him home, etc. I of course had hardly anything packed. I had packed the baby's bag after washing all the baby items and put the baby stuff away, but I had pretty nothing packed for myself. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">So we set about calling family and friends who would be watching our son and got all my things together. My contractions were very regular and coming closer together, so I knew I was definitely having good labor patterns. It took about 30 mins to get everything packed and everyone called. We headed to our friend’s house to drop off our 5 year old son. When we got to their house (a short 10 min ride) I waited in the car while my husband ran him inside. My contractions were coming stronger and closer together. We quickly headed to the German OB hospital (another quick 10-15 min ride) and were met at the door by one of the midwives and brought back to an exam room. I have her my mütterpass, which is a small German OB medical record book and let her know what all had happened. </span><span style="caret-color: rgb(53, 28, 117); color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">On the way to the exam room she informed us that since I was early I wouldn’t be able to deliver early at St. Elizabeth’s because they did not have a NICU and I would have to go over to Heidelberg.</span><span style="caret-color: rgb(53, 28, 117); color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span><span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">She did a quick pelvic check on me and let me know it was safe to drive over to Heidelberg and that she would not have to call an ambulance. I asked her how many centimeters I was dilated and she said "3". "ok" I replied. "How many did you think you were?" she asked me. "Around there," I said. So we headed back out to the car and headed to Heidelberg which luckily wasn't far, however we weren't sure which part of the hospital we needed to get to. Eventually we pulled up to the front entrance we, which had only two parking spaces for emergencies and my husband turned to me and said maybe I should go park in the parking garage. "Don't you dare!" I said as my contractions had started to come every 3 minutes on the way to Heidelberg. We managed to wind our way through the hospital and get to the OB floor. I believe we got there around 8:45pm. We were placed in a exam room that was large and dimly lit with an exam table, and a few chairs and a sink. I found out later from one of the midwives that I labored in one of the triage rooms because they were so busy that I never had enough time to make it into a laboring room. I initially laid on the table when I got into the room and I quickly realized that laying made my back and stomach pain much more intense and got back up. After being in the room for a short bit someone came in to do an ultrasound to check on the baby's position to make sure he was head down. To me it seemed like it was a half an hour after we were put in the room, but when you are in labor time becomes very distorted. I eventually found that sitting on a rolling stool was very nice to get me through my contractions. Between the waves I would rest my head on my arms that were on the counter or place a wet paper towel on my forehead and when a surge would hit I would rock back and forth on the stool. I went into a zone and though yes it was painful, it was not unbearable. I began moaning through the contractions, somewhat unbeknownst to myself and one of the midwives came in and said she would like to check me. (I now realize that this can be an indicator that labor has progressed!) I climbed on the table and she checked me and said I was complete! (We had only been at the hospital for an hour and a half at this point) I was so glad to get off that table! And as soon as I did a surge hit, and I didn't know what do without my stool. I tried going from foot to foot and the midwife told me to sway my hips. The midwife let me know we would be moving to a labor room down the hall. Once the surge was over I started walking to the door and she had to wrap a blanket around me. I was ready to walk our pantsless, not a care in the world! I could tell my baby was about to come! as soon as we walked the short distance to the room another surge hit right as I climbed on the bed on hands and knees. The midwifes (another one had joined us now) got me facing the right way as I asked if I could push. They said yes, bless them. I will spare some details here except to say that with 2 contractions my son was born! He was so tiny and looked nearly identical to his brother. He was born at 10:44pm and weighted 5lbs 11oz, 17.32inches. I got to hold him for just a minute and then the midwives took him to the NICU. He was breathing just fine on his own and was nice and healthy, just tiny. His labor was very short at only about 4 hours, and I needed stitching. I asked the midwives to show me my placenta after it was delivered and there was one small clot on it which could have been left over from the hematoma. My placenta also was not perfectly round and the attachment point for the vessels was a little unusual. Nothing super rare or unusual, but interesting none the less. </span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">After I was tended to I walked down the hall to the NICU and saw my baby boy. He was so adorable and tiny. It was hard going to my room that night without him. I will skip many details here... Baby boy stayed in the German NICU for 3 days and then was transferred to the pediatric hospital to gain weight. All in all he was in the hospital for 10 days. His big brother did not get to meet him until he came home. The days splitting my time between the hospital and home were difficult and yet so cherished because when I was at the hospital with him all I did was just hold him and love him. Just him and me. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Times;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Happy New Year! <span style="color: black;"><span style="color: #444444;">We had another great appt today! I am 30 weeks and 5 days today, less than 10 weeks to go! I can't believe it. We had an ultrasound, and yes it is still a boy!! We don't have a name picked out, but both my husband and I have made a list and we are trying to compromise, also I want to see what this little guy looks like before we totally settle on a name.</span> </span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">We had an ultrasound today and he is measuring right on target and is estimated to be 3lbs 12oz. He had a round little tummy and short legs :) (his tummy measures 31-32 weeks and his femur 29 weeks). My Dr commented on the fact that he is right on my bladder, which I am very aware of! We did not get any pictures this time because the baby is so big that it is hard to get a good shot and with him being head down he kept turning his face away from the wand. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">We also did another NST (non-stress test, which monitors for contractions and the baby's well being) and it came out excellent again. The Dr. said he is a very active boy, which we already know!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My cervix is still closed, but the Dr said that the baby is low, which confirms what I have been feeling (pressure in my pelvis). I think this is why I have been having a lot of hip pain this go round. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">All in all I am feeling good, I have had some return of my morning sickness-just feeling nauseous a bit in the mornings. I have also been having some insomnia, which it totally abnormal for me, so I have been very tired. I also seem to be starting the "nesting" phase, which is kinda new to me because I was on bedrest with my first at this point. Trying to balance resting and getting things done that I want is a challenge. I got a little worried the other night because I had contraction severy 5 mins or so for about an hour and a half. I made sure to lay down and rest and they slowly went away thank goodness! That's about all that is going on!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">(I really need to figure out a way to get pics and videos up here, I will have to take the time to upload to youtube or something...)</span></div>
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Times; font-size: large;">Well we had a good Christmas and survived my son's 9 day stomach bug, only for my husband to come down with it on Christmas morning! :( My poor boys!</span><br />
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Times; font-size: large;">In the preggo news, I am still feeling good and everything seems to be coming along well. It amazes me how different this pregnancy is from my first. I didn't realize how easy of a pregnancy my first was! This time around I have every pregnancy ailment they speak of in the books! The hardest to deal with has been the hip and back pain. I have been trying to sleep with a body pillow at night and the days that are more painful wear a belly support band, but neither make it go all the way away! </span><br />
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Times; font-size: large;">My 29 week check up went really well. They started doing the NST's (non-stress test, the baby's heartrate and contractions are monitored. It's used as an indicator of baby's well being and to detect pre-term labor, which we know I am at increased risk of developing). The NST was excellent and I only had one contraction. I have been having a lot of Braxton Hick's and some are them are a little painful. The baby was what they call reactive, meaning he had normal accelerations and decelerations of heartrate. He was very active and kept moving around, even my Dr. commented on how active he was! My Dr. also did a digital cervical check (a pelvic exam) and my cervix is nice and closed, and the baby is head down already. He also did a vaginal sonogram to measure the length of my cervix, which was also good, still long thank the Lord! The rest of my bloodwork came back and was all good, even my iron (yay!). So we are just plugging along and the hematoma seems to be gone, gone, gone! Thank the Lord. I am struck by these moments where the beginning of my pregnancy just seems like a bad dream. I am so thankful that everything has worked out so well, and pray for the women that it doesn't work out well for. I can only hope that my story helps someone else who is going through something similar!</span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Georgia;"><span style="font-size: large;"> <span style="color: black; font-family: Times New Roman;"><span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I had my 25 week appt and things are looking very good. I had to do a glucose tolerance test that screens for gestational diabetes. I had to drink a ton of the not the greatest drink after having fasted for 10 hours and then have my blood drawn. I will hear if I passed it in about 4 or 5 days. (it ended up coming back normal) I seem to be finally catching up in the weight department and have gained about 15 lbs if you count all the weight I lost and then gained back. Because of me being high risk for pre term labor (from going into labor with my first pregnancy at 32 weeks and having it stopped, plus having had the hematoma in the begining of this pregnancy) my Dr was very thorough and checked my cervix both digitally and by sonogram. It is nice and long and closed still which is fabulous because I have been having quite a few braxton hicks contractions, some of which are painful. The baby is head down already, at least for the moment. He is very very active!!! My stomach looks alienish from all his movements. All in all there is much else to talk about, I'm just getting bigger!</span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Everything looked good, still no hematoma seen on the ultrasound and the placenta looks really good. Found out for sure that it is a boy! He looked really good and was measuring well. We had a hard time getting a picture of his profile because his face was towards my back and he kept turning away from the ultrasound. It was really an uneventful visit, which is fine by me!</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I haven't had any bleeding now since about 17 weeks, I have been having braxton hicks, but that is normal. The baby is extremely active and making my belly look crazy with his movement. </span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I really don't have much else to say except that I feel so very blessed to be where I am today. I have started buying baby things, and it seems more realistic now with this big belly.</span> </span><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10143327090720477786noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1858323093922021256.post-49322877925263257352012-10-26T01:40:00.000-07:002012-10-26T01:40:57.298-07:0019 weeks and 6 days<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So I realized I never updated from my last appt (17 week appt)! oops! The appt was quick and everything was great. The Dr. checked my cervix and it was closed, fundus was where it should be and the heartbeat sounded great on doppler. I was hoping for an ultrasound because I had spotted/bled for so long after the last big bleed at nearly 14 weeks. It had stopped of course the day before the appt. We are still doing the magnesium supplements. </span><br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Next appt is in 1 week, it should have been this week but their office was closed all week. I will get an ultrasound at this appt, it is one of the bigger ultrasounds because they do an antaomy scan so it will be so nice to get a good long look at baby and confirm if it's a boy!! :) Sadly my husband can't go with me to the appt due to work, he has to go out of town :( I was hoping to record the ultrasound again for all my family in the states, but oh well! My mom tried to convince me to take my husband's giant tripod with me to the Dr's office! She's crazy (in a good way).</span> <br />
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<span style="color: purple; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I can't believe that tomorrow I will be at the halfway mark! One of my many milestones that I never thought I would reach! Sometimes it is so sureal looking back and remembering how hopeless I felt sometimes that this pregnancy would ever truly make it. I feel much much better about the hematoma itself now, but my fears now stem from the fear of going into labor early. I already had higher than normal risk of going into labor early because of going into labor with my son at 32 weeks, even though they stopped it. Now that I have had the hematoma that increases my risks as well. I try not to worry because it's not healthy for me or the baby, but I know the risks and the complications. My next milestone is 24 weeks which is considered "viability". It's the point at which Dr's will try to stop labor and if the baby is born early it will still have a chance of survival. I thank God every day for another day to love this little one and can't wait until the day I hold the baby in my arms, healthy and happy!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(15 weeks and 2 days)I have decided to go back on the Zofran
here and there if not every day. The nausea and vomiting is just too
intolerable. I’m hoping if I can try to not take it every day I will not get as
constipated as last time. I have been very depressed this past week and I know
a lot of it stems from the poor quality of life I’m currently experiencing
being stuck in bed and puking all the time. Also I’m going to have to be more
active at least the next two weeks because my husband is working days again
which means I will have to drop my son off for school every morning and pick
him up from the bus stop (which is a couple blocks to walk to), make dinner,
and bring my son to soccer practice on Mondays and Wednesdays. Before my dear
hubby was doing literally everything, I haven’t been cooking, cleaning or doing
anything except bringing my son to school in the mornings and doing anything I
can when I’m not nauseous or bleeding. I am hoping that this isn’t going to be
too much activity and will cause another bleed (even though I’m still
spotting). I am going to have to remind myself to rest during the day, but it’s
difficult because all I want to do is break the chains of being confined to
bed. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">It’s been 3 weeks since my big bleed. I’m still
spotting which is just annoying, but I’m feeling really good! The nausea and
vomiting has finally subsided! Thank the lord! I usually get sick once or twice
a day, usually in the morning and not every day. I've been taking the zofran only every once in awhile and my digestion has seemed to normalize besides being hungry a lot and craving pickles so much I have resorted to drinking the pickle juice. Such a relief to not be as sick! I have been being relatively active,
although I am still taking it easy and spend a few hours in bed in the mornings
after taking my son to school and doing some chores. I am just feeling so good I
wanted to jot it down and remember it! I have started to feel small baby
movements, which is exciting. I thought I had been feeling them, but it’s hard
to differentiate between baby and my crazy digestive system! Now I'm sure it's baby. My belly is
getting bigger too and there are only 2 pairs of normal pants I can wear now,
shirts are getting too short, let’s not even talk about bras! I’ve added almost
2 inches to both my belly and my bust! I don’t think I look pregnant to
strangers or people who don’t know though. I of course feel huge. I think I’ve
finally gained some lbs back, but we don’t have a scale so I will have to wait
until Tuesday for my appointment. I’m hoping Dr. H will do an ultrasound to
check for the hematoma since I have still been spotting, but I don’t think he
will. Five more days till my appointment.</span></span></span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10143327090720477786noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1858323093922021256.post-39038729861993109132012-10-04T03:04:00.002-07:002012-10-04T03:04:54.811-07:00Scary bleed 13 weeks<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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days), probably the scariest one yet. I was eating lunch when I felt a gush. I
ran to the bathroom and was just dripping blood like a facet. (sorry told ya I
don’t hold back). It was bad enough that it freaked hubby out quite a bit, he was in the bathroom and witnessed it. Due
to the large amount of blood I lost/was losing and a large size gallball-baseball size clot (my first clot) we went and got checked out
by Dr.H. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The baby looked great, was active and his heartrate was perfect. Dr. H
could not find the source of the bleeding. He has put me on some magnesium (oxide-a
dietary supplement) to keep the uterus relaxed and I am back on bed rest.
Yipee! :( The placenta looked good and does not seem to be covering the cervix,
which can sometimes cause bleeding like this. Sometimes these hematomas can
"hide" and can't be seen on the ultrasound. There are other causes
for bleeding, but it doesn't seem to be any of them. Sometimes women bleed and
they don't know why. So the most important thing for me to do is rest since
blood is an irritant to the uterus... Either way knowing the why of the
bleeding isn’t really important in a way because it doesn’t change the
treatment. I have also been having a rough time with the vomiting and vomited a
tiny bit of blood last night. Sometimes this happens with ladies with
hyperemesis (excessive puking) and it's just another thing to keep an eye on.
(It comes from the esophagus becoming irritated by the acids). My next appt is
october 9th.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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major bleeding. We had our 13 week appt today and got to see lots of baby
because they checked the baby's anatomy. We got to do our first abdominal
ultrasound, which felt silly because I just didn’t feel big enough for it to
show really well, but it did! The baby was still very active and we took a few
short videos which I put on youtube. <a href="http://youtu.be/jMtzwTi6kQI">http://youtu.be/jMtzwTi6kQI</a></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">You can see a profile now because the
bones are all hardening, including the nasal bones. We also found out that the
baby is probably a boy!! I have been thinking it was a boy and everyone kept
saying girl! We don't mind another boy and didn't really have a preference.
My son was very adamant in the beginning that it be a girl, but we have been
telling him for awhile that it might be a boy so when we told him today he was
ok with it, I think he was excited just to know what to expect! Of course when
I asked him what were we going to name the baby now he said "Crystal"
when I told him that that is more of a girl's name he said with attitude:
"fine, Fancy Crystal" LOL!! Not sure where he comes up with these, of
course he does love crystals! The baby looks perfect as usual and the hematoma
appears to be completely gone. Great news, but I know they can come back and or
hide so I am not holding my breath! Also just last friday and into the weekend
I had a very mild bleeding episode, so It makes me think it may still be there.
Sometimes they can hide behind the placenta. I am still having really bad
morning sickness, but I took myself off the zofran because it didn't seem to be
helping and it was making me severely constipated. I still haven’t gained any
weight and have lost a total of 8-10lbs since being pregnant (I didn’t really
need to lose any weight). I have also been having some back, hip and knee pain
on one side, I'm not sure if it's the sciatica or not.... The joys of being
pregnant.</span></span></div>
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I went to see Dr. H today. Baby looks fabulous, and is one ACTIVE lil bean!!
Like whoa active, makes me nervous! LOL I guess when you are a fighter ya gotta
do karate in the womb! (according to my son anyways!) Hematoma is even smaller
than last week praise the lord! Dr. H says I don't need to come in when I bleed
now unless it's a major bleed or major cramping. Wahoo. Also still
discontinuing the progesterone, he says after 11/12 weeks it doesn't really
benefit the bleeding. There are mixed opinions on that, but I would actually
rather be off it anyways. Baby's heartbeat was great. Nausea and puking is
still present and kicking my butt. That's about it. Next appt is sept 11th. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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feeling very positive that the hematoma was disappearing, the baby was well and
very active which Dr. H assured me was a very reassuring sign. Everyone was
full of congrats and very happy for us. I left out that I have complications,
it is just too personal and too hard to explain in a short sentence everything
that is occurring. I came to terms with the fact that if this baby doesn’t make
it, then I will be ok. That I can tell people to please not to tell me they’re
sorry and what not if that is what I am feeling. There was a song that one of
the ladies posted on my support board that a Christian father wrote for his son
who was born with a genetic heart disorder called hypoplastic left heart. The
song is about how he will give his everything and all his love to his son no
matter what the Dr’s said. The song really says everything I have been feeling.
The song is called “all of me” by Matt Hammitt and here is the link for
youtube: </span><a href="http://youtu.be/KnlT5FV6Jwg" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">http://youtu.be/KnlT5FV6Jwg</span></span></a><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; line-height: 115%;"> )</span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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days. Hematoma is almost gone! There is a small portion near the top, but it is
grey which means it is in the healing process. Baby measured right on target
and nucal test came back normal. Dr. H said the heartbeat was fast, strong
and perfect, he said everything looked perfect. He was very happy the hematoma
was nearly gone. The baby was moving like crazy, arms, legs and head were going
every which way, popping like popcorn in there! My son thought it was funny and
the baby looked like it was doing karate. (heaven help me!) Dr. H said to take
the progesterone for only one more week and then stop it. I'm hoping that will
help decrease my nausea and vomiting! I'm taking the zofran twice a day and still
puking most days. Dr. H said there really isn't anything else I can do for the
nausea, but hopefully it will decrease in the next few weeks as I get to the
third month. I also seem to not poop anymore and am having to take the milk of
mag every 5-6 days in order to go # 2. Constipation is very painful by the way
if you have never experienced it! Next appt isn't for three weeks.</span></span></div>
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appt, but I’m not going to. I’m venting. I’m tired. Physically and emotionally.
My house has dust bunny’s and needs a good dusting/vacuuming, and I leave a
trail of half empty water glasses and food where ever I go. I have been puking 2-5
times a day and my stomach has been in constant pain since last night. I had
difficulty sleeping from it. It feels like rocks are trying to move through my
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simply because it is depressing. But it is real, and it was what I was feeling.
Last week’s appt on 8/7/12 (8 weeks) went good. I mean the news wasn’t the greatest, but I still
left feeling renewed because I had seen my little peanut, I got to see it move
it’s head and an arm! It’s so funny how I’ve seen the baby grow from a little
dot to now having arms and legs! It sounds queer to say all excited “my baby
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">At the appt I got to see Dr. H which was nice because I
hadn’t seen him since week 5! We spent a few minutes in his office catching up
on everything that had happened since week 5 and then went in for the
ultrasound. At the time it had only been a few days since my last bleed, so of
course the first thing we saw was the hematoma. It was pooled above my cervix
and under the baby, then all the way up the side of the baby and a little over
the top. I don’t think he could have measured the length, it was long and the
hematoma was almost the size of the whole gestational sac. At it’s widest it
measure 1.3X1.8 cm. But the size isn’t supposed to matter, it’s supposed to be
the location. So naturally I asked if it was behind the placenta (the worst case
scenario because it can, can (not will), lead to loss of the baby from lack
of blood supply or the placenta being torn away from the uterus). Dr. H said
yes it was behind the placenta, but when I looked at the sonogram it seems like
the placenta is in the upper right and the hematoma in the upper left. But I’m
not a sonographer and I know it can be very hard to distinguish at this early
stage where it is located without using the blood flow thingy, which he didn’t
use. The baby measured perfect almost to the day and as I mentioned before. It
moved it’s over proportioned head and it’s little arm. The heartbeat was
155 bpm. Dr. H decided to decrease my progesterone to just at night because it
was making me very loopy and dizzy during the day. I had also lost more weight.
Initially they had talked about seeing me every week, but since my bleeding
episodes only seemed to last a few hours the last 2 times he decided to just
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the appt I was absolutely miserable. All I could manage to do was lie in bed
all day, puking 2-3 times a day, barely eating, nauseous all day, stomach pains
all day. And then I got constipated for 6 days. Finally I couldn’t take anymore
and broke down and went to the clinic onbase. I really didn’t know if I needed
to go there or to Dr. H’s, but I figured I would have more luck getting the
Zofran onbase. They gave me a prescription and recommended milk of magnesia to
help unclog things. I ended up giving myself diarrhea and puking with the milk
of mag, but it did work! The Zofran helps a lot and I am feeling better. Still
not myself and my stomach is absolutely insane! I have a loud stomach anyways,
but now it’s just crazy loud!! I still am having some pains in my stomach, but
I’m hoping they will slowly dissipate in the next few weeks as I near the 12
week mark and get out of the first trimester. I’m still kind of undecided about
whether to tell the entire world about being preggo at week 12. It’s like on
the one hand it gives me freedom to say what I want on my fb page, but then at
the same time if I lose the baby it’s that many people I have to tell, then
many sorry’s I have to face. My mom tried to make it positive and say it would
be tremendous support and though it would be, I think it would also be very
difficult. But then do I really wait until viability at 24 weeks to tell
everyone? It feels kind of betraying in a way. I’m so excited and want to share
my news with everyone, but it scares me. For now I’m just telling myself that
there are 2 more sonograms until I decide what to do and hopefully it will show
the clot absorbing. Our next sonogram is less than a week away and I just can’t
wait. I thought about asking Dr. H if we can make a small video of the sonogram
once we see everything is ok with baby. I’m just not sure if I want to, again
the fears of what ifs. Maybe it would be something I would cherish if something
does happen instead of a negative thing. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">8/6/12 I have been feeling so crappy that I haven’t had time
to jot down these entries. I have had more bleeding, another visit to the ER, another OB Dr.s
appt. and my gallbladder appt. since the last entry. My gallbladder and
surrounding organs look fine and they are chalking up the digestive issues to
hormones. My visit to the ER was a week and a half ago. I was 6 weeks and I
think 4 or 5 days, on July 25<sup>th</sup>. My husband and I were getting ready
for bed and I felt like I had some really awful gas pains in my belly. As I was
lying in bed reading I felt a sudden gush. I was terrified and hurried to the
bathroom to discover that I was indeed bleeding like I feared. As I was
dripping blood (TMI sorry) all I could think was that it was over, that I was
losing the baby. I told hubby that I was bleeding and thought I was having a miscarriage.
(Being overseas you have to call Tricare anytime you go to the hospital for
paperwork and coverage reasons.) So it was about a half an hour before we finally
left for the ER. They told us that we couldn’t go to St. Elizabeth’s where Dr.
H (my Dr.) works, but that we had to go to the Schwetzigen hospital. One of my husband’s
co-workers came over to watch our 5 year old son while he was asleep since it
was 9:30 at night. When we got to the hospital we checked in at the ER and they
sent us up to the OB/GYN floor where the DR met us. She was very young, but
very nice. She did a pelvic exam and a sonogram and said things didn’t look good.
She said the gestational sac looked abnormal (not perfectly circular) and she
couldn’t see a heartbeat (at 6 weeks sometimes a heartbeat is not seen and things are fine). My husband and I thought we could see the heartbeat, but we
are no Dr’s! She took some blood to run some tests and decided to keep me overnight
for observation. She was convinced as I was that I was miscarrying. She
even went over the D & C procedure with me, had me sign the consent in case
things started getting worse. She also gave me a progesterone suppository for
good measure. The plan was to do a repeat ultrasound in the morning and
look for a heartbeat. I hardly slept at all that night. I had to share a room
with an old German lady. It was not fun and I will spare you the gross details.
At 7:45 the next morning they came and took me for the sonogram. My husband had not
made it to the hospital yet. My bleeding had stopped during the night. They were using a more
advanced machine on me and a sonogram tech instead of last night's Dr. Immediately the little shrimp
showed on the screen with a heartbeat! I was so shocked and stunned. Happy of
course! The tech said everything looks great, have a great pregnancy! So I left
feeling relieved even though I had no idea and no answer as o what the bleeding was from.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Fast forward a week and on august 3<sup>rd</sup> at 7 weeks
and 6 days I took my son to school that morning and felt some lower stomach
pains. Nothing unusual for me at this point! By the time I got home I was definitely
cramping and went straight to the bathroom to discover that I had bled through
my underwear and shorts. Not again! I was so worried because this time I was
having cramping and last time I did not. Since it was daytime hours I called
the OB office and they squeezed me in right away. Thank goodness. My husband was home and went with me since he was on nights for work, he said I
seemed much more worried while we waiting this time. I was. Went back for the
sonogram and immediately we saw a little bean with a beautiful heartbeat! This
time you could even see the 4 chambers of the heart pumping. One of the best
sights you can ever see. The Dr. (not Dr. H) poked around for a while and said
“aha, a blood clot”. My heart sank. From the research I had done about my
unexplained bleeding I knew it meant a hematoma. And her next words were “you
have a hematoma”. She explained to us that it’s not good news and it’s not bad
news. She went on to say that if the pregnancy was meant to be I could trip and
fall, bungee jump and the pregnancy would stay. But if it’s not meant to be
then there is nothing to do to prevent a spontaneous abortion. There is
absolutely nothing wrong with the baby, it will not be deformed or have brain
damage from this, there will be no ill effects from the hematoma if the body
naturally absorbs it like it should. So she put me on progesterone to keep the uterus relaxed and hormones up and we are going to do weekly appointments until things seem to be
resolving or we have a better idea of what is going to happen. To better
explain a hematoma it is basically a blood clot or hemorrhage in the uterine
wall. It can be between the placenta and the uterus, it can be on the edge of
the placenta, or it can be just affecting the uterus and not be touching the
placenta. This poses a risk to the growing baby because blood irritates the
uterus and causes it to cramp down, so this is one of the reasons why it can lead
to a miscarriage. It can also cause the placenta to tear away from the uterus
either a little or completely. If it is early and partial, the placenta usually
fixes itself, if it is later in the pregnancy it can cause preterm labor or
placenta abruption. This condition is said to only affect about 1.7% of
pregnancies according to one study. However it is one of those conditions they
just don’t know that much about, there is very little research and variety to the treatment. There is also a 30% chance of premature birth
with this condition. I am already at a higher than normal risk for premature birth,this because
of my PCOS and because with my son I went into labor the first time at 32 weeks. Luckily they stopped it and I went on to carry him until 37 weeks and 5 days
which is considered full term. So now I am stuck in a wait and see situation. I
joined an online support group for hematomas and I am hoping that the
clot/bleed resolves on its own because after reading several women’s stories,
this may not be the end to my scary bleeding episodes. Most resolve by about 20
weeks, and the earlier it is detected the better your odds are. However it’s
still scary. Some women have needed blood transfusions from the amount of blood lost, many have large blood clots and some bleed their entire pregnancy. There is also an increased risk of hemmorhage after delivery. I have been on the progesterone for 4 days now, and it sucks so
bad, I hate it. It makes me very dizzy, light headed and tired. I feel like a
zombie. My stomach issues just won’t seem to go away, my intestines are always
causing me pain. But at least I have what I would consider a normal pregnancy
as far as morning sickness goes and not the hyperemesis I had with my son. But
the stomach pains are just so awful, and seem to be 24/7. And then of course if
I’m too active my uterus gets achy. So I’ve been pretty bed bound. I was so
hoping this pregnancy wouldn’t lay me up in bed, and it would be “normal”.
Guess not! I also feel constantly hungry like there is a hole being burned into
my stomach. <o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ok enough griping. Tomorrow is another appt. I’m hoping they
can tell me a little more info about the clot since I now know more about them.
I want to know where it’s located and how big it is. I’m also hoping they will
give me a sonogram picture since the only one I have is the dot picture from 5
weeks. Or I will ask them if I can take a picture with my ipod. Initially
before finding out about the hematoma I had planned on asking to make a little
video if we saw the heartbeat first. Now I’m scared to. I’m scared that if this
baby doesn’t make it I will have this sad reminder. I feel like a lot of my joy
has been taken away from me and been replaced with hesitation, doubt and fear.
I’m scared to take the tags of the maternity clothes I bought; I’m scared to
buy anything. I’m scared to even tell anyone I’m pregnant! This is hard for me
because I’m such an open book kind of person. So for now I pray. I visualize
the clot disappearing. I am a part of a support group for women with hematomas.
I lay around feeling miserable hoping that it will all turn out the way it is
supposed to. This baby is loved plenty here on Earth which is where I want it
to be, but should it go to heaven and become one of God’s beautiful angels I
know that my grandma, grandpa and cousins will be there with open arms to
welcome this angel and will love this baby just as much as we would…. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10143327090720477786noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1858323093922021256.post-16014214239586858152012-10-04T01:48:00.000-07:002012-10-04T02:42:14.642-07:00Introduction and finding out (July)<br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-size: large;">I wasn’t sure if I would ever put this out there for
everyone to read, but I felt like it was important to jot down everything I was
going through. Initially it helps to jot it down since I didn’t tell too many
people I was pregnant in the beginning, then I realized that maybe this baby
will read it one day and realize what a miracle they are and how much mommy
went through. Early in my pregnancy I was diagnosed with a subchorionic hematoma,
there is so little known about hematomas and when I was diagnosed I just wanted
to read other people’s stories of what they had been through and what I might
need to expect, so I hope that my story will help with other people going
through a pregnancy with a hematoma. I will explain in the blog what this
condition is and what the implications are, if you want more information please
visit: <span style="color: #444444; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; line-height: 115%;"><a href="http://community.babycenter.com/post/a27372249/sch_faq">http://community.babycenter.com/post/a27372249/sch_faq</a>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: purple;">I also wanted to create this blog separate from my other one
because I have some friends and family that may not want to hear every little
detail about my pregnancy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And there are
other people (like myself) who want to know every detail no matter how minute!
Be forewarned that I am not a modest person, also I am in the medical field so
talking about poop, blood and other things that are nasty to some are just
normal to me. I don’t go into full detail of these things, but I do mention
them when they come up. I’ve kept it the way I wrote it, which is kind of like
a journal with the date at the top and how far along I was.</span> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">So let’s back track a little shall we? Let’s start with how
I found out… First off I had only been in Germany reunited with my husband and
5 year old son for a few weeks and we decided to go on a castle hopping
adventure and to see LEGOland for the 4<sup>th</sup> of july. Well we barely
left because my stomach was acting up. I was having a lot of pain and bathroom
trips that were making it hard to depart on our adventure, I thought that my
gallbladder or appendix was exploding, but the pain and bathroom trips subsided
and we were able to leave. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Well my whole life I have a horrible stomach, but this pain
was new, so after a week or so after our adventure it had lessened, but was
still there, so I made an appt. in family practice. (on a side note during out
trip I thought I had my period, gross but important detail). During my appt a
week and a half later the Dr thought maybe gallbladder, unfortunately with
stomach pain it can be any number of things. Upon palpation of my upper abdomen
bringing tears to my eyes he decided to order various blood and urine tests to
help rule out liver and kidneys issues. He said we might do a sonogram
depending on the labs and that he would call me that day as the labs results
slowly started to trickle in. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">About 2 hours later Dr. F. call and the first thing he asks
me is “Was you previous pregnancy normal?” “uuhhh yea”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">“No complications at all?”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">“uuumm, no”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">“And when was the last time you were pregnant?” <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">“five years ago. Why? Did the test come back positive?”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">“yes, and these are highly sensitive tests.”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I went on to ask him about the fact that I thought I was
currently getting over my period as we spoke, coupled with my abdominal pain he
seemed concerned, but told me to go to the emergency room if my pain got worst,
otherwise he was putting in an emergency referral to be seen downtown by an OB
and the referral should take 24 hours. Once I hung up the phone my first
thought was “oh shit!” My husband and I had not been using protection, however it took
nearly 2 years to get pregnant with my son due to my PCOS, we were initially
told we would have to use IVF and additionally I had only been reunited with my
husband for 3 flipping weeks! I went to my husband crying and just blurted out “I’m
F!@#ing pregnant” I was totally shocked and very concerned because bleeding is
never good with pregnancy, at least that’s what we are told. I thought for sure
and told hubby that I thought I was having a miscarriage. Then I went into the bathroom
and took a test I had. It was a faint line, but a line none the less. I don’t
know what it is with us ladies, but we need to see it to believe it I guess.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A couple hours later I got a call from a lady who identified
herself as the Liason officer. She had spoken with my nurse who had spoken with
my Dr and they were all concerned that I was having an ectopic pregnancy. So
they advised me to go to one of the OB ER’s. So we packed some stuff for our
son and got some food and off we went. The amazing thing about Germany is that
they have ER’s/clinics just for preggos, so it’s nice to not be with a bunch of
sick people. Once we got there they took my urine and decided to do an
ultrasound. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">*Please remember I am quite blunt and I say it like it is,
so if you are grossed out easy, stick to my facebook page or e-mails!* <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Of course this early the ultrasound is vaginal. The scan
didn’t show anything which wasn’t surprising because I was only 4 weeks, but
there was nothing to be seen in my tubes, which was good. The German Dr. was
very nice and didn’t seem concerned about the bleeding, he said it was very
minimal and that it is actually quite common early on. He said that once I got
my referral I could come see him in his office. He also ordered HCG (the
pregnancy hormone) levels to be done and said we would repeat them in a couple
days after getting my referral. At this point we hadn’t told my son anything
besides mommy is having tummy problems. Being the smart little boy he is when we were part
of the way through the visit he got really close to me face to face and asked
me in the most serious voice: “mommy do you have a baby in your belly?” I was
totally caught off guard, but being that we are so honest with him and he would
know if something was going on I told him that we didn’t really know and that’s
why were there.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">After leaving I ended up doing a ton of research about
bleeding because I never had it with my son, I knew other women who had
experienced it, but I always heard it being lighter than a period and I had
what I thought was a normal period except no cramping. Apparently it is quite
common for women! Some women bleed around the time of their period their whole
pregnancy, and as it turns out there are several ladies I already knew who bled
when they were pregnant without any complications! But I was still very nervous.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The bleeding stopped shortly after my visit to the ER (9 days total)and my
referral ended up taking 3 days instead of 24 hours. So by the time I went back
to Dr. H’s office I was 5 weeks and 2days. He gave me my HCG level which was
326, which was normal for 4 weeks and we did another ultrasound. Luckily we got
to see a gestational sac, which measured 5 weeks and 3 days, and it was in the
uterus where it was supposed to be, so we are right on track! From the research
I did you can only see something on ultrasound once the HCG levels reach 2,000,
so they had risen quite a bit as they should. I was so relieved to see our
little baby dot! Dr. H said that things were developing just as they should and
I asked him if I could breathe now. He said yes, but next we need to see the
heartbeat (which I already knew). So we scheduled our next apt for 3 weeks
later (8weeks along) and we should be able to see the heartbeat and a little
peanut next time! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(I am 6 weeks and 1 day right now as I’m writing this {I
think the date was 7/23/12}) I absolutely cannot wait!! It’s like the next step
to relief… Dr. H said they will do and ultrasounds @ 8 weeks, then 10, then 12,
then 20, then 30. We have told our close family and my bff, but it is so hard
keeping it secret! I’m the worlds worst liar and I cannot keep my own secrets,
I suffer from diarrhea of the <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>mouth. As
of now I have been feeling surprisingly well as far as the nausea goes. With my
son I had hyperemesis so I was already quite ill at this point. So far my
biggest symptoms have been exhaustion (so bad I don’t even wanna sew or do
anything), supersonic sniffer, and booboulders a.k.a. breast tenderness and
enlargement. I am hoping to continue on the path at this rate! I really don’t
want to experience the nasty nausea. A little bit is tolerable, which I’ve had,
but that is all I will allow!!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">On a side note I have an ultrasound scheduled for what they
think is gallstones on July 31<sup>st</sup>, and an appt the day after to
review it with my doctor. We shall see what it says. I’ve also read that most
GI issues go away or subside during pregnancy (including IBS and gallbladder
issues). If it is gallstones we will wait until after the baby is born to
remove the gallbladder unless it becomes very bad. As of right now, the pain
has gone away and all I have had is a sensation of fullness in my upper right
abdomen in the mornings. I’m kind of hoping that they will take a look at the
baby during the abdominal ultrasound, but they probably wont. I just can’t wait
to see that little heartbeat!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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